Tuesday, March 31, 2020
Mental Health Update
I have decided that since I posted aN awful lot when I was in the midst of my nervous breakdown earlier in the year that I’d provide an update.
The short version is that I’m doing a hell of a lot better. This is not accidental, I’ve been working very hard to get to this point. I’ve taken the happy pills, I’ve seen the psychologist, I’ve done the self care, and I’ve been a lot kinder to myself than I probably ever have been before.
Am I cured? Nope. Not by a long shot. And I may never be. I’m OK with that though, it’s a work in progress, and I’ll keep at it.
(Especially since all theatre has stopped for the foreseeable future and that was my main form of self care. Oh, and I can’t get my nails done anymore, which was my back-up self care, but they are both VERY first world problems and I’ll manage without them)
Shout out to my main man Terry because I’m not exaggerating when I say that without his love and support I would absolutely not have managed to get even this far.
Also, thanks to everyone who messaged me to check in, and to share their own MH stories with me. I’ve got good people in my world, and I hope you all stay there.
Lastly, if you think you might need help with this sort of stuff, please talk to someone, anyone. Your GP is a great place to start, but my inbox is always open, the good people of Lifeline (13 11 14) are always there.
(This became way wordier than I intended. Peace out)
Friday, January 10, 2020
That’s not tears, THIS is tears!
Just when you think you’re doing ok, it turns out you’re absolutely not. I held things together pretty well over the crucial Christmas/ New Year period. (Aside from a horrendous trip to the Sydney Aquarium. Oh my lord what a clusterfuck that was!)
But this week. This week has been... tough. I haven’t been able to go to work, too many tears falling out of my face to be providing any sort of customer service, let alone the standard I normally provide. I thought I was crying a lot in December when I last blogged, that had nothing on this week.
Depression with a side of PTSD can go and get fucked.
I think I’m coming out the other side now, but earlier in the week I was seriously thinking about checking myself into some kind of facility. It was horrendous. (Thanks to my peeps who listened without judgement, you know who you are. Mwah)
I went to the doctor (work requires a piece of paper to say I’m too fucked to be there) she prescribed rest and sleeping tablets and melatonin. The sleeping tablets worked a treat, I took melatonin for the first time tonight and it’s 130am and I’m still awake so I’m reserving judgement on those for the time being. She also made me promise to have a shower and leave the house at least once a day (I am a model patient. I even went swimming. And by swimming I mean ‘I floated around in the pool for an hour’. The good thing about that is that no one could tell if it was pool water or tears. Hint: it was tears.)
Self care? Well, I read an entire book. And I’m hallway through another one. I haven’t read two books in a row in years, so this is a big deal. My iPad tells me I’m a good girl when I reach my daily reading goal. I must have set that up at some point but I have zero recollection of doing so.
So, Thursday is done and I can count on one hand the amount of times I cried today - this is a big deal. Hopefully even less tomorrow. And hopefully some sleep soon.
But this week. This week has been... tough. I haven’t been able to go to work, too many tears falling out of my face to be providing any sort of customer service, let alone the standard I normally provide. I thought I was crying a lot in December when I last blogged, that had nothing on this week.
Depression with a side of PTSD can go and get fucked.
I think I’m coming out the other side now, but earlier in the week I was seriously thinking about checking myself into some kind of facility. It was horrendous. (Thanks to my peeps who listened without judgement, you know who you are. Mwah)
I went to the doctor (work requires a piece of paper to say I’m too fucked to be there) she prescribed rest and sleeping tablets and melatonin. The sleeping tablets worked a treat, I took melatonin for the first time tonight and it’s 130am and I’m still awake so I’m reserving judgement on those for the time being. She also made me promise to have a shower and leave the house at least once a day (I am a model patient. I even went swimming. And by swimming I mean ‘I floated around in the pool for an hour’. The good thing about that is that no one could tell if it was pool water or tears. Hint: it was tears.)
Self care? Well, I read an entire book. And I’m hallway through another one. I haven’t read two books in a row in years, so this is a big deal. My iPad tells me I’m a good girl when I reach my daily reading goal. I must have set that up at some point but I have zero recollection of doing so.
So, Thursday is done and I can count on one hand the amount of times I cried today - this is a big deal. Hopefully even less tomorrow. And hopefully some sleep soon.
Thursday, December 19, 2019
All The Tears All The Time
So, long time no blog blah blah blah.
I’m typing this on my phone in the wee hours, so please forgive any typos or formatting issues. I might go back later and fix them. I might not.
2019 has been a clusterfuck. For lots of reasons. I might go into them another time. The end result is that I’m in a fairly deep bout of depression. At any given moment I’m 15 second away from tears. The tiniest thing can set me off.
So I took myself off to see a new psychologist, she seems to think the answer is self care. The problem is I don’t really know what self care looks like for me. It’s definitely not baths. I don’t mind a scented candle, but surely that’ll get boring very quickly? I’m thinking maybe it could be resurrecting this here blog? It helped me through some shit before, maybe it can again?
I’m typing this on my phone in the wee hours, so please forgive any typos or formatting issues. I might go back later and fix them. I might not.
2019 has been a clusterfuck. For lots of reasons. I might go into them another time. The end result is that I’m in a fairly deep bout of depression. At any given moment I’m 15 second away from tears. The tiniest thing can set me off.
So I took myself off to see a new psychologist, she seems to think the answer is self care. The problem is I don’t really know what self care looks like for me. It’s definitely not baths. I don’t mind a scented candle, but surely that’ll get boring very quickly? I’m thinking maybe it could be resurrecting this here blog? It helped me through some shit before, maybe it can again?
Tags:
Grief,
PTSD,
Stuff That Sucks
Tuesday, June 18, 2019
Giveaway! The Greatest Magic Show!
The Showmen are back, following their recent
sold-out season in Melbourne, the multi award-winning, sell-out sensation, The
Greatest Magic Show returns to the Spiegeltent Collingwood from July 2nd
to 13th for 10 shows only!
Read on to find out how you could win a family pass valued at $80!
Read on to find out how you could win a family pass valued at $80!
This time as a part of the biggest magic festival in
the Southern Hemisphere, the Melbourne Magic Festival, come see the stars - Sam
and Justin - hit the spotlight debuting brand new and hilarious magic and
breath-taking circus stunts to thrill the kids… and their parents! PLUS, every
child who attends will receive a FREE magic wand on entry and may even be one
of the lucky few to come up on stage and become a star of the show!
Incredible illusions and circus artistry, and
invisibly shooting a very special guest out of a cannon across the stage are
just some of the things that make this family-friendly magic show the greatest,
but for the first time, Sam and Justin are joined by Brendon Kerss, the
mysterious Ringmaster.
Melbourne-based comic magicians Justin Williams (26)
and Sam Hume (20) will be using their combined 15 years in family entertainment
to put on this production, which is anything but a typical children’s magic
show. The routines are unique and out of this world, not to mention that you
will be struggling not to pee yourself from all the comedy coming non-stop from
these two charismatic performers!
Tickets are available by clicking here.
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The answer that amuses or confuses our judge the most will win. Entries are open now and close Tuesday 25th June at 6pm Melbourne time. The winner will be contacted by email.
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Friday, February 8, 2019
Giveaway! Silvers Circus!
Hey you
guyssssssssssss! Long time no bloggy bloggy, but whatever, I;m back with the free stuff, so you'll forgive me, right?
One of my favourite circuses (circusi?) have now been running for over forty years and they have a new 90 minute show and it has DINOSAURS in it! (It also has a STACK of fantastic circus acts, including gymnasts, the Wheel of Steel, the Globe of Death, and the Wonder Dogs!
They’re at Fountain Gate in Narre Warren from now
until March 3rd and then they’re going to be over the other side of Melbourne
in Altona until the end of March.
One of my favourite circuses (circusi?) have now been running for over forty years and they have a new 90 minute show and it has DINOSAURS in it! (It also has a STACK of fantastic circus acts, including gymnasts, the Wheel of Steel, the Globe of Death, and the Wonder Dogs!
Tickets start at just $25 and now
include a FREE Dinosaur Exhibition. The tent has cooling in it, so it’s a
perfect place to hide from the weather.
You can get your tickets from www.silverscircus.com.au or you can call 0413 880 044 OR 0400 456 157
Here's a video to whet your appetite!
Here's a video to whet your appetite!
But... We’ve got a family pass to
give away for next Friday February 15th at 730 pm in Fountain Gate. A family
pass admits 2 adults and 2 kids and is valued at $120!
To win, just fill out the form below
and tell us if you’d rather BE a dinosaur or HAVE a dinosaur and why. Entries
are open now until Tuesday 12th February at 6pm. The answer that amuses or confuses
our judge the most will be the winner.
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